Eating with Stress

Last week I had written about trying to focus more on portion size.  That all went out the window.  It was a tough week.  On the fun side, we went to a party and I got together with friends another night.  I made some great food choices, and some not so great ones.  The hard part though was that life threw another curve ball, and just when I thought things on the home front were in a really good place, everything fell apart.  Again.  When my husband begged for ice cream to deal with the stress, I caved and bought some.  Yes, it was "no sugar added", but full of fat.  I ate it.  I felt like crap for eating it.  I was mad at myself for not being stronger, aggravated at him for also "needing" a food item I absolutely should not be eating in order to deal with his own stress.  We were eating it for all the wrong reasons.  There should be joy and laughter when one is going to eat badly, and this was clearly the opposite.

I went out to lunch three times during the week, when I only had planned on going out once.  My husband and I visited two wineries, tasting several varieties and sampling cheese and crackers as well.  I polished off the rest of the ice cream one night, thinking I was going to get it out of the house before the week ended so I could begin again on Wednesday...my weigh in day...with that evil thing is the freezer no longer tempting me.  Wine, cheese, crackers, ice cream, M&M's, Dove Chocolate, ranch dressing, even a CHEESEBURGER for goodness sake (and let me tell you, that burger was the best thing I've eaten in a month).  Getting on that scale was going to be brutal.  But it had to be done.

What did I see?  That I had lost weight.  In fact, I had lost more than I had in any of the last few weeks.  (In my book, every 2/10's counts)  What the heck?  But in reality, I STILL had eaten better than I had pre-liver diagnosis.  No fries with any of the lunches...vinegar based slaw or a salad instead...dressing on the side please.  Not an entire bag of M&M's - just a few.  Buying "no sugar added" ice cream in the first place.  Small steps, but obviously they made a huge difference.  I'm still headed in the right direction.

Weight Lost This Week - 0.8 lbs.
Total Weight Lost -          8.2 lbs.